busy busy busy busy

For the past few days while travelling I think i have to update my blog.. and it is generally very rare that i think of something to write way before i write it.... but this time there was this particular thing i wanted to write... but have been so busy of late... so busy haven't gotten even a minute away from work to write.... still now (past 12 midnite) i am in office.... taking a break .. so i thought will write... it is a stress reliever....
well here's what i was thinking about... i was thinking about rating my work days... like some days when i go back home i feel irritated i feel restless on other days i feel pretty happy satisfied... some days it is no feeling... so on and so forth... so i was thinking may be on a daily basis log what i feel (in an Excel??? ;-) ) like everyday after office when i reach home... just put the date and may be 'ok, bad, good, pathetic, very bad, very good, amazing' something to that extent... not rate it on a scale of 1 to 10 or sth... because frankly when people ask me to rate someone on a scale of 1 to 10 i just rate them as good bad ok,.. then scale it to 1 to 10 then add a decimal value to mock... like how would u rate that developer on a scale of 1 to 10... i think he is pretty good... although there is room for improvement... that'8 so i say anywhere between 8.25 and 8.5 ;-) and as i dont want to mock myself i will not rate it numerically and anyway numbers take the feeling away from feelings... although even words do... but here i am in the mood of some serious analysis.....
so at the end of a month may be i plot everything... day basis; date basis; and may be average out... find the mean and all.... and if the values are usually bad... or ok.. may be think of changing something at work... notice the effect... and so on....

why all this exercise... may be to keep myself busy... but i am already very busy.... why did i think of it then... oh yes i remember had a particularly bad day... actually a stretch of particularly bad days and was thinking what went wrong do i need to quit... and i came up with this "brilliant" mechanism and even while writing i realised it is like one of those things which i really mean to do but never end up doing....

but somehow the whole concept intrigues me... kind of taking myself tooo seriously... kind of a way to look at me as if i am not really me.... as if i am an "object of analysis/study" nice... look at myself while being detached with myself....
nice i say... what say you????

look into my eyes....

I felt like writing something but couldn't think of a suitable title... because i didnt know what i wanted to write... and to have a title before i start writing is kind of a must for me.... otherwise it will be like playing with a nameless baby when knowing the baby will be nameless till the time u are both in college!! So i thought of giving the first words that come to my ears after the thought, as title... good for me it was the song i had put on.... because frankly a title like "whats the transaction for mounting standard text into TR" would be very funny and strange to say the least :-)
i read this really interesting line in the paper... someone famous must have said it at some point of time... although i forget the name... "Money often costs a lot" i liked this line a lot... and it is now my status message too :-)
and that reminds me of this conversation i had read in a book recently:
Character1 : I will be happy if you dont repeat this
Character2 : Thanks i will remember it; and there's one thing you had told me earlier which would make you happy and i quite forget; but it is good to be prepared for situations you think will never occur ...

or something to that effect... it was a nice conversation and a nice book too... talking about books i have to buy another one i am quite out of books now... I wonder what i would do if it wasnt for books... life would be so boring!!
Friends family books shopping coffee chocolates flowers few things without which imagining life is almost impossible... now that i am imagining it i think even work is important so make it Friends family books shopping coffee chocolates flowers and work few things without which imagining life is almost impossible... although some ad said Impossible is nothing but i think this statement is nothing.... because frankly human imagination isn't far fetched enough to make words for nothing.... and if we make a word that means there is a possibility that it is... even if it is just in our imagination... so frankly nothing is nothing everything is something.... waao i like that statement!! ad dancing also to the list above! God if i keep writing this blog for some more time i think that list will become very very big.... so many things without which life sort of loses meaning... talking about life they will be screening life is beautiful on the TV sometime this weekend i think... i love that movie... i think there are very few people who dont... this movie is like that book The little Prince in this aspect... very few people who wouldn't like it... although i know a few people who would not like certain things just because they are critically acclaimed and universally liked.... but i think even those people will like both these.....
And now i am so sleepy (sleep another thing without which imagining life is difficult) that i will go get a cup of coffee... and u have a nice day/weekend!

Cheers:-)

feel like a stranger

have you ever been in some place and still not felt like a part of that place... that's what i am feeling right now.... i came back to my city after years of wandering here and there ... i feel like a part of this city... but somehow i cant feel like a part of my office here... when people talk we have to do this we have to do that (wrt the office and not my project) i feel as if they are talking about some other place not MY office... as if i am just an onlooker not a contributor just looking at things not being a part... i had felt that way about cities earlier but never about my workplace.... i feel that way now... may be i just need time.... time to settle in absorb the atmosphere or something... but this place is so unlike the places i am used to work at... the atmosphere is entirely different .... i cant say good or bad.... it's just different... it's just not what i am used to may be... but when they talk about doing this implementing that i dont get that drive from within... and top it with an extremely involved feeling i get where my work (and that of my team's) is concerned... it becomes a funny mix... it becomes like being almost at the core of something and not being a part of the thing this something belongs to.... getting what i am saying....

but anyways.... work is work its not life....... and as long as it doesnt make me sad i am fine!!!

P.S: When i woke up today i badly wanted to listen to this song... i put on TV hoping against hope they will be showing it... they weren't!!! then while coming to office they were playing it on the Radio!! i was soo happy :-)

the disco error is gone!!!

Oh how great it is when you spend some 4-5 hours on an issue... actually more than that... and finally solve it!!
specially when you had no clue as to the whys and whats of the error....
it just gives you peace and happiness and whatnot!! and you can really appreciate edison and his sentiments when he finally made that bulb...

aa ha ha... i can't express what i am feeling right now... eternal bliss!!! kya yahi pyaar hai ;-)

now i better push off... its past midnite... and i just want to go hit the bed!!!

kar le kar le

why this title... well i am talking to someone on phone regarding a bug he insists is present and i insist isn't... now since the bug is not getting replicated he is trying various perms combs and he said "let me try one more thing" and i said "kar le kar le" (translates to "go ahead do it" ) i just liked the phrase!

oh no the bug is replicated :(... oh oh its gone again!! i hate in consistent bugs....

oh thankfully the bug was replicated... and it wasnt an inconsistent bug... a very logical very proper bug... and obviously since it is a proper bug it is now fixed.... am calling that "bug finder" now to tell him the bug has been fixed!!!

how i love these bugs which have some sense associated with them... what i dont like is bugs like that disco error... will tell u sometime later what disco error is....

am going home now!!

bbye!

Sohniyo naraajgi taan nahin?????

My favouritest song these days... sohniyo naraajgi taan nahin... oh gall dil di je ikk keh diyaan*... sung by Soni Pabla... i dont think it is a new song... although i heard it only recently.... the song one is so upbeat and two is so respectful and yet flirty!!! a very rare combination... i think if someone was an elegant flirt they would think themselves reflected in this song :D
Oh how i irritated my bro by listening to it in a loop... again and again and yet again... so now i was waiting for my friend to finish work and was getting kinda bored so started listening to this song... even a monday is not that bad anymore!
I wish i had listened to it yesterday... after all yesterday was such a lazy day... almost spend the entire day indoors... i think i didnt even step outside the house door... leave aside the house gate!!!! Watched a few movies... old ones... and when there were no more DVDs to watch... put on TV... yesterday they were playing 'You've got mail' and 'Sleepless in Seattle' although not at the same time ;-) saw a part of both.... and remembered long time ago when i had seen Sleepless how i went and got 'an affair to remember' just because this movie talked about it... i like that part of sleepless where sm1 tells Meg Ryan... you don't want to be in love ... you want to be in love in a movie... i laugh so hard at this statement everytime i watch the movie!!!

moved on to another song... thekiyaan ch nit khadke... khadke galaasi tere naa te...* somehow i like this song too!!!! For this birthday someone 'gifted' me 'may you hear lots of good music' i think his wish is granted ;-)

Ni jind jaan waar denge ik teri nikki jahi haan te* :-)

*Contact me for translations