What has the world come to???

My Boss just came back from Germany(with a stopover in Switzerland)... and got some really delicious Chocolates from the heaven of Chocs.. Swiss..... one of the best i have had!
Those chocolates actually come with a gurantee!!!
What has the world come to??

turning a loser

Well a clarification... loser here is not what you know a loser to be ; a loser is someone who loses stuff... even materialistic stuff... someone who is prone to losing may be keys money pens etc...
i was never such a loser when i was younger...in college once i lost my bag and i got it back after a few days!!!! same with my college I-card also.... and i had the same eraser for 4 years in college!!!!!
when i was in school i would often lose my pen but i would be sure to get it back sooner or later... dont remember whether i got it or not... but i remember till recently i felt if i lose stuff i get it back... and thanks to orkut it has been true for my freinds also.... all freinds i lost touch with i am in touch with again!!!
but last month... i lost my keys... and didn't find em... and yesterday i lost my access card and didnt find it.... i was very sad in the morning when i realised that.... i felt as if the whole world is changing.... i felt funny.... it felt more like a warning for things turning worse in general... may be i am reading too much into nothing... but dont know... couldn't shake the feeling... specially when i was told the admin deptt is out of access cards :(
but i went to that lady she had a card for me :-) may be its just the cloud is a little bit bigger and the silver lining a bit farther.... may be the world is not changing after all.... but waht has changed is that feeling which made me feel whatever i lose i will get it back... now i am not so sure anymore.... i am sure next time i leave my phone on my desk and go somewhere i will not be comfortable till i get it... i will think i have lost it.... next time i leave my wallet in the office over the weekend... i will i think go to office as soon as i realise it rather than wait for the next working day/day.... dont know if it is for better or worse... but it ofcourse is for less comfort!!!!

sleepless in singapore!

its three one two AM local time and i am not sleepy... not just that i couldnt sleep... i lied in bed for around 2 hours then gave up trying! woke up to put on some music... then thought might as well check my mails and scraps etc etc.... had this orkut mail from one of my favourite school teachers... he had sent a mail saying he has uploaded some school pics in orkut.... sure enough i went to the album to checkthem out.... they were pics from treks and tours (an annual thingi in our school ) and some others from i think founders day andathletic meet and i think one was from childrens day celeb (because it was a teachers tug of war pic and i think we had that only during children's day... or was it teachers day... teacher's day we got to decorate our classes and play the teachers.... should be children's day not sure though) i was just transported back... to those days.... and those teachers.... none of my college professors rank as high as the school teachers in my list of favourites.... there was just something about school teachers.... may be i was just lucky... or may be its just that age.... when you believe your teachers are really up there on the pedestal..... i dont know... may be it was just about the teachers i got...
back to treks and tours.... standard 7 we wanted to go to Rohtang Pass... but Rohtang Pass was open to students of Standard 8 and above.... we didnt have that option.... but then we requested our teachers please sir please maam... and they gave in.... that was a nice trek we had.... one of the best thing about treks was we used to get to see a different side of our teachers... when they werent trying to school us all the time.... when they weren't teaching us .... not directly atleast... i believe we did learn to be wiser... or may be learn somethinga bout life... like in himachal while trekking ask any local where is xyz it is alway bas do kadam chaliye... or 15 minute chaliye... it will take u the full day.... like if u touch some wild plant that gives u itchiness... there will be another rt next to it which will cure u... though u can never find it.... but ask a local passing by and he will spot it rt on....
it was good talking to those shopkeepers... they would know tourists and students at that... talk nice,,... where we are from how we like it.... and then there was that comparing of on our trek we did this on our tour we did that right after the treks and tours.... just proving to your class mates you had better time than they did,... and i remember this particular song i had learnt while on the rohtang trek... surangni surangni.... suraangni ka maadu kanwaa... maadu maadu maadu surangni ka maadu... surangni ka maadu kanwa.... dont ask me what it means... i never knew... but the song we liked.... the nexty lines were english though....if u want to meet me darling done come at one... if u want to meet me darling dont come at one ... my father will be waiting with a double barrel gun.... i almost remeber the whole song as well as i remember (x+y )^2
not that school was all fun;... though i am not talking about the exams , that wasnt anything i dreaded because it was more a part of the routine... but there were other problems very much like today.... i had my fill of freinds and problems with freinds and everything.... when i look back... there are certain things i cant figure out why they happened to me... and whats worse there are certain things i cant figure out why i did..... but this particular thing very interesting i remember.... my last room mate and i were together in school... i think this particualar incident is when we were in standard 9 or 10 i cant remember.... it was the athletic meet time; she(Boks) and i were writing certificates (1. it meant we could sit in shadce and get free neembu paani; 2 we were both NOT good at anything remotely to do with sports or athletics) this +2 guy won in one of the events and we didnt know his name... i remember he was a kashmiri and a hostler... and we knew his first name not the last name... which we needed to know to put on the certificate... so we spot him and run after him and say excuse me.... whats your name.... that guy looks utterly confused and says why? Boks says "Personal Interest!!!!" u should have seen his face..... and his freind standing rt next to him was telling him yaar yeh certificate likhti hai... and that guy couldnt understand what is happening.... they way we laughed at it for days!!! whenever we spotted him!!!!! yeah the days were more fun than trouble.....
on second thoughts life is more fun than trouble... no wonder those days were tooo!!!!
i better sleep now my tummy is grumbling and there is nothing i can eat rt now...... on second thoughts i might go to the airport and get sth to eat ... anyway i have to go thr to recieve a frnd in the morning... but that is still 3 hours away... i think sleeping is a better option......

nothing else matters

just some time ago (refer to the previous blog) i was feeling terrible... work related probles and what not... i left office with almost tears in my eyes.... i was feeling really sad and bad and angry and a lot of other negative emotions/feelings... while walking to the bus stop i crossed this fountain where they generally play music... the song they were playing at the time... actually the line that caught my attention; "in the end it doesn't even matter"...
it was magic, i smiled... it was as if all the negativity was released all of a sudden.... just vanished... i was happy again... though the eyes still hurt... but i was more at peace...
how much difference the attitude makes... there i was feeling as if today is the worst day of my life and here i am feeling it doesnt even matter, in the larger picture it really doesn't...
in the larger picture i think only the people matter and nothing else.... and may be also how i live... as in each day... do i smile more than i frown... do i live more than i crib.... and those things... but what technology i work on definitely doesn't matter... doesn't.... but whether i like working on it... tht matters....
Life's Good....

could be worse i believe

I am in office... its arnd 7.30 PM local time... have a bad head ache... my eyes are paining too... though i doubt the will be red.... the ac is a bit too cold for my comfort... it generally is... especially in the evenings when people leave so the heat generated goes down therefore the net cooling effect is higher than that during the day... the ac duct is right over my head therefore my seat is generally cooler than the other areas on the floor.... which means i have goose pimples and a slight ache in my shoulder too.... and the fingers are on the numb side.... i am waiting for the functional consultant to ok the chanegs so that i can move them to test environment and go back home while he does a comprehensive test... i just got a bad news.... this project i was chosen for... because i am one of the more experienced people in the team, the functional consultant assigned to it is someone who is absolutely new, knows nothing about this particular thing we are gonna work on... i felt terrible.... i was so angry i told my manager if he works i wouldnt work on it... make someone else do that... i think i shouldnt have said tht..... but i was angry... it made me feel that when they said you have to do it because we cant trust anyone else to do it, it was not really thta....
and now i am in a soup for opening my big mouth... because they are against me fr saying that the fc is not competent enough..... thr problem who am i to say it??
Yes who am i to say it??? infact who am i at all??? i dont know ... am i my name? am i my degree? am i my qualifications? am i my friends? am i my family? am i my face? am i my structure? am i my emotions? who am i? what would my epitaph read.....
i hate it.....
lets see how worse can things get... i am sure they can get much worse..... hope fr the best/worst...

Lazy Saturday

its yet another lazy saturday afternoon.... woke up late as usual .... infact later than usual... i could hear the rain falling outside.... it was actually pouring.... is a nice feeling.... you are nestled cozily in your room,.... and outside its raining.... from this side of the window the rain is almost romanitc,... though wouldn't like it tht much had it soaked me to my bones.... so listening to the rain i slept again... waking every half an hour and going back to sleep realizing its still raining (oh my fav song on radio... good day today) slept a lot... when i could sleep no longer,... i woke.... cleaned the room to make it inhabitable.... finally it has stopped raining and i am half thinking i should get up and get going... grab lunch or coffee... read a book.... tht reminds me i am out of books to read save 1... will borrow a book also may be and return the earlier ones... sounds like a good idea to me... only if i wasnt sooo sleepy!!! Over sleeping has its hangover!!!!