its a sad sad day...

when i went home from work last night... i didnt leave my work at office i think.... no i didnt work at home but i went with a feeling which said lots of work to do tomorrow.... its gonna be a long long day.... when i woke up in the morning i think somewhere back of the mind the feeling was lingering.... i had a creased forehead.... infact i still have a creased forehead... the Gods however probably wanted my day to be better... the songs playing (i always put em on shuffle) were all happy ones... like the age old "congratulations and celebrations" somehow it didnt help as much as it should have
i came to office not looking forward to the day.... i started the day with an apprehension.... i have loads of work to do... i haven't really started working today... i know i should have.... a third of the day is gone... and no real work i dont like it... may be after writing this i will.,.....
the good thing is i got earphones to office today... i had earphones earlier... really pseud ones... left them on my desk and poof the next day they were gone... i haven't lost anything in office but earphones... i think what happens is someone who is working till lets say 1 in the night gets bored and tells himself/herself... God if only i could listen to some music.... goes to get coffee or sth and on the way sees earphones on a desk... takes them with full intention of returning... but somehow forgets... or may be forgets where he had taken em from... and hence keeps them with himself/herself... anyway so those really nice earphones i had spent a lot of money on were gone... and i got these complimentary ones... the ones u get on the flight and take with you... even if i lose these i wouldnt mind... so here i am listening to 'i tried so hard and got so far... but in the end it doesn't even matter' now i don't know whether to work or does it not really matter......

i just hope the day that is today ends fast... but with the pace i am woking at i doubt it will.....

anyway... all the best to me!!!

P.S: To do list-->
1. Return order auth form - delegated to someone
2. Sample order report - Important
3. order assignment report - equally important
4. BoM issues - need to guide...

where's the hurry?

last night while driving back from work i saw this traffic signal... the light was green... and i was a good hundred metres away from the "stop" line... the timer said 3 sec i accelerated(was already at 80kmph)... and right then a millisecond later i stopped accelerating... i was reminded of this other time i was going down the same road (albeit in the other direction and at the next traffic signal from this one) i was in the navigator's seat and one of my friends was driving... and we were in the same situation(3sec and 100mts) and i asked him to accelerate.. he didn't and instead asked me but why? i didn't have an answer for him... i really didn't!! not accelerating just meant another minute and a half at the signal and that is it... and it wasn't even as if we were getting late or going somewhere special or anything... just thought of spending time together and the car was as good a place as any......but it is just a tendency i have which makes me accelerate when near a traffic signal...
In fact on second thougths i do drive fast... not 80KMPH or anything... but average between 45-60 and on traffic less roads 65-100 and its not that i am always in a hurry or anything... no i am not... its not that i have to be in office by a certain time and always leave later than acceptable... i just drive at that speed... i do.... but that day i didn't have a valid answer for his question.....

i don't know where is the hurry most of the time.... why are we humans, as a race, as restless as we are... where do we want to reach.... haven't we been told enough times it's not about the destination but about the journey... don't we know it ourselves also.... don't we know that in reality there is no destination... only the journey... but still we over speed.... i even tend to get restless when someone is typing slow... i sometimes take the keyboard and start typing myself... may be to save time so that i can do a little bit more of nothing... may be to save time so that later i have more of it to kill.... "save time" doesn't even sound right... i mean i can save money it will remain... i can save trees they will grow... i can save the girl child... she will live... but save time... how can i ... time will pass... it knows nothing else but to pass..... i can never save enough of it.... on my deathbed i can't say i saved time all my life so i still have 5 more years.... no... it doesn't happen like that... time passes... so where's the hurry?????

P.S:

" After one look at this planet any visitor from outer space would say I want to see the manager. " - William Burroughs

Its a friday!!!

its a Friday and i aint in the Friday mood... the mood that just makes you happy and makes you jump with joy.... not really jump- jump but the "spring in your step" jump... when you are cheerfull and happy the whole day just because it is a friday... i am more in a Monday mood today and i know not why.... i am feeling so sleepy that if given an option i would have slept right now.... top it with everyone else being in the friday mode and hence not much work for me.... actually what i would really like right now is go to a coffee shop and read a nice book...
talking about books i recently started reading The Catcher in the Rye... Again... it is one of my fav books.... i was looking for something the other day and found this book instead... so i started it... and i loved it as much as last time... one thing that the book says stuck... the narrator is talking about visiting a museum again and again over a period of many years and wondering how everything is exactly the same... then he says it is not same since i have changed everytime i visit it.... same with me for this book... everytime i read it i have changed from the previous time... its a nice feeling.....
Another book i love and have read various times... To kill a mocking Bird and then of course there is the little prince not to miss the adventures of a dog by the night time i can't go on listing the books... but everytyime i read any of these i feel great!! i feel good from within... infact thinking of that brother in the mocking bird thinking now that we have made so solid a point nothing can stop us from winning makes me smile... thinking of the prince looking at the farm filled with roses and the fox(or was it wolf) explaining him about how his rose is special makes me think about people who are special to me.... i wish i could write a master piece like that,..... then even if it wasnt published i wouldn't mind... i would just read it everytime i was blue.... and then in addition to the book making me feel good i would have felt extra good thinking i was able to write something like this......
considering i am on a wishing spree i wish i could sing well too.... and paint and dance .... and...........

thank God writing this and thinking about all these book has decreased my yawning frequency!!!

now back to work :-)

opposites attract... likes repel???

"opp attract likes repel"....might be true for magnetic poles and may be charges... but is it true for peolpe too???
i was just thinking about this the other day... of course we all know we cannot form rules when it comes to people.... people have this uncanny habit of not fitting in any rules!!! but still i was wondering lets say two opposite people.... but how do we say two people are opposite.... ok let me modify the statement two people having opposite choices are together.... i doubt if they will be happy.... imagine they have 3 hours.... they wouldnt be able to decide a movie to watch... since we are talking about opposite choices means they will have no middle ground... so the movie one wants to watch is the movie the other will not watch even if paid to do so!!!! so opposites might attract in case of people but they cannot be together for long!!! bound to fight....

on the other hand lets take the example of two likes being together (ok like dissolves like ;-) ) like two opposite people two like people are also people with same choices.... so now these two people are together they like the same kind of movies same kind of books same kind of clothes everything.... so they co exist peacefully.... and may be even happily.... but what about 'growth' you are with someone who thinks like you... you agree on all things... there is no one to give you a different perspective... there is no one to tell you have you tried this author... you might like it.... and although this isn't your type of an author you still like his work... a bit different from your usual stuff but once in a while different is a good.... a nice breath of fresh air... and is definitely required... but you wouldnt get it if you are with a person almost exactly like you....
although i understand that it is difficult to find two people having identical choices... but highly similar choices will also become suffocating after some time.... i am almost sure.....

think the winning formula is thoda this thoda that... similar yet different.... atleast you can help each other grow and at the same time not tear one another's clothes!!!

and why this general statement and general write up out of nowhere.... well generally ;-)


P.S: I forgive my father....I forgive women.....I forgive my boss....I forgive the government....I forgive my barber.....I forgive my past.... I forgive them all..... I feel like...I feel like GOD!
-Bajaj Avenger TVC

over rated is it?

there are lots of things overrated in life/world... clearest example being brands... too overrated at too many places!!! then take the example of 'air travel' most over rated form of travel... in fact talking about over rating i think even childhood is too overrated... i mean it wasnt all that great as it is made out to be... it just was like now just is.... but well this doesn't really matter....

but what is highly overrated and effects all of us is success.... i want to be successfull in life... whatever that means... if you ask people to define success i am almost sure there wouldn't be any consistency in the definition and i am also almost sure that there wouldnt be any quantitative definitions.... people are so hung up on success... wait let me find the dictionary meaning of success... "1. obsolete : outcome result 2 a: degree or measure of succeeding b: favorable or desired outcome; also : the attainment of wealth, favor, or eminence3: one that succeeds" Source: http://www.m-w.com/dictionary/success
I have everything in life that i can want for a comfortable living.... everything... but still i dont think i am very successful... but the thing is i dont even want to be.... i think the expectation from me is that i keep wanting more... keep wanting something i dont have and achieving it... it is one thing today another tomorrow and another day after.... i might own a very successfull business... but no thats not enough.... i have to aquire other businesses i have to keep on growing.... what is the motive of life... what??? why????

anyway.... i am successfull enough... and i dont want anything else in life... i know saying that is as good as comitting suicide..... but then again.....
manzil se keh do meri raah naa dekhe... main naa rukoongaa..... main azaad hoon.....


P.S: Have you ever argued with someone over something... about the future... and the test of time proved you right and wondered but why was i right... couldnt i be wrong this one time???

happy new year!

the title is just keeping in mind the atmosphere and the time... and it has not got much to do with the post.... although now that i have this title i might as well make it appropriate!!
so the post is now about the way i spent the 1st day of 2008!!!

what a day it was... i took a peak into my life as it will be after i retire... not just retire from work to do something i really like... but retire for good...

woke up around 8.30 (very early by my holiday standards)... dropped mom to work (when i retire i might be dropping my kids to school ... if they are still in school that is ;-) )came back got dressed for a day of nothingness.... had breakfast.....
after that for more than an hour i just lay in the sun on an easy chair (almost a beach chair actually) reading a newspaper... then for the next hour i must have read another newspaper ;-) and so i spent a few hours reading various newspapers... all of them talked about new year bashes new year resolutions and new year plans and what not... it felt as if for once the newspapers had something to talk about and they were overwhelmed with the fact and just putting everything into print... without giving much thought to editing....
actually it wasnt that bad... but yeah it was too much of 'new year/2008' ... then i just lay in the sun doing nothing.... then i started reading a book... had lunch (complete with my fav winters dessert) then continued reading the book... still in the sun..... talked to a few friends in between... was too lazy to call any... just talked to those who were nice enough to call me ;-)
then after a few hours of reading the book and travelling in the fantasy world i took a nap... a small one... woke up... went to pick up mom.... then we shopped... didnt find what i was looking for... so that was some 2 hours spent going to various shops with heating and then coming out to the biting cold and then going in again!!! i wonder that i am not sick with cold etc!!
came back home... had a good dinner... watched some sitcoms on TV and then went to sleep!!!!

what a day it was... lazing around and without that feeling u get if u spend the entire day lazing around in the room (and not the sun :-) )

They say the entire year is similar to what you do on new years.... how i hope this is true :-) !!