A spring in my step.. A song in my heart...

Tujhe kya gham tera rishta gagan ki baansuri(??) se hai ... sooraj ki roshni se hai......chandaa ki chaandni se hai...
udiyo naa dariyo kar manmaani manmaani manmaani
badhiyooooooo naa mudiyoo kar naadaani....

have been "mumming" this song since morning... even when other songs were playing in the car... oh that reminds me i put one of my fav cds and the player returned a "Read error" God it's disheartening... so i almost started the day on a "broken heart" but I am happy today,...
and i know why too (if you happy and u know it and u really want to show it... tap some keys ;-) )
well i left office early last nite... early as in 6.30ish... it felt good... when i left there was still light in the sky... the air was the nice cool march evening air.. not too hot not too cold... and it was blowing in a very serene pace... as if the whole purpose of the air was to soothe you to calm you... to make you feel everything is allright with the world... on the days when i am home like weekends... i like sitting outside in the lawn in evenings... may be read sth or listen to music or just sit... its nice... there is something in the evening air that makes me feel good... and now that i am talking about it i can remeber that mom would never let us sleep in the evenings, her exact words "jad do wele milde hain udon taan bimaar wi uth ke baith jaande hain", and try to send us out... i am sure its because of the "soothing" and "detox" (these days if you have to sell anything... even if it is evening air you have to use such words! believe you me!) effects the evening air has on a person.
Well anyway, not selling evening air.. i left office early last night.... felt good... although by the time i reached home it was already dark... you know how it is with evenings... they only last that long... especially after the sun has started setting... but i aint complaining... well after i reached home i felt good too.... i had all the time in the world... all the time... i felt relaxed... i realised a few hours extra sleep in the morning aint as good as a few hours extra in the evening (ok late evening) ... and those who know me would realise how big a confession is this for me... or may be i am just getting old.. ok older ;-)
but yeah the long and short of it is i felt good because i left office at a decent hour... i think i will try doing that more often now... leave early come early... after all it's my life... 5 years after now i dont want to feel all the time i had was never mine... this despite of me liking my work (no i am not just saying this )

so here i am singing ghar tera saloni... baadal ki colony... dikhlaade thenga un sab ko jo udnaa naa jaane jaane jaane.... and i am sure ppl around my cube are by now irritated... and being a "good" human being i should shut up./.. aah i think i would just mute myself and keep singing it in my head...
like the "a spring in my step and a song in my heart" mood that i am in today :-)

Cheers!

Ghar tera saloni Baadal ki colony....

....dikhlade thenga un sabko jo udnaa naa jaane!

I had a bad day at work today for no real reason.. other than the system being extremely slow... and i mean EXXTREMEELY slow during the later half of the day.. in fact past few days life at work's a bit sad... sad as in I am no longer smiling while working... there is something missing... not with work but at work.. i dont know what it is... and then i spent the whole of today feeling "not happy from within"... despite getting a very very good news in the evening (one of my BESTEST friends got a call from a B school!!)
well despite this.. i was sad... i was really happy fr her... really really happy... and when i was talking with her i forgot everything else... all my worries everything... but it all came back as soon as i hung up.. and i dont even know what the "IT" was....
while driving back i drove fast.. i "cruised".. i put loud music... i put slow music.... i was trying to forget something i didnt know i remembered... i was trying to "take out my anger on the road... on the city"... i was trying to feel a part of the city... make the city a part of me... get lost in it... like so many people are ... lost in the city without feeling anything... busy with their lives... not bothering enough... not bothering about anything... not things like recession...or the sri lankan team.. they make me sad but not from deep within... things like ... like... things you cant identify... things that make you "word less" things that are so small that you dont even know they are thr... things like calling up a friend and not being able to fix a time to meet him/her in one full week... things like a friend coming all the way from far far away to meet you... and you feeling incomplete when they leave... because you still hadn't talked enough...... because thr coming only made you realise what you are missing..... things like a system so slow that it might as well not be working... things like a vibe.... things like a phone out of reach... things like a fav photograph deleted "by mistake"...
things like not writing in a blog... for months... because in all these months i didnt feel enough....
all these things... they get messed up in your system... they mess you up... they leave a bad after taste... leave you wondering... you really cant do nothing.. can you??? you cant create time you cant "will" a phone into network... you cant... and its not really that big a deal... seriously it's all very small things all inconsequential... really really inconsequential... but try telling yourself that... because you dont even know what made you sad at the first place.. because you are just thinking all this now that you force yourself to think... otherwise its nothing... you know its nothing....

i was supposed to get fuel on the way back... i even took out cash for that... but i forgot! i simply forgot!! and almost reached home with an empty tank... old age that?

PS: Is being sensitive about getting hurt easily or about being careful not to hurt others?

PPS: i saw "62 posts" that was my roll number in college... i love the number...