have you ever been sad?? have you ever been so sad that it hurt... physically.... and then thought why do i give someone so much power over me that they can hurt me... this bad.... thought and thought and thought and not come up with an answer good enough.... try to make yourself immune to that someone but failed... and then wondered but why??? then you try and sort things out... but does it help?? no it doesnt because what you feel for them they never felt for you... and you can do everything in this world but force feelings... you cant force feelings you have for someone and you cant force feelings someone has for you.....
what are you left with??? a hangover??? a head ache??? a few tears and the cab driver asking you the directions....
you know the directions you tell him but even his "maam left now?" is a disturbance... you want the cab drive never to end..... but it ends... you come back home.,... tears still falling down your cheeks.... did the driver see those... even if he did it doesnt matter.... does it... its not my country after all..... these are not my people after all.... but if these are not your people how could someone hurt you???/ how could someone hurt you this bad by just being themselves.... do you think they wanted to hurt you??? you know the answer... they never wanted to hurt you... he doesn't even give you enough importance as to think of hurting you.... it hurts you even more.... you reach your room... you notice the maid has cleaned your room... you notice the bed is made the books are arranged the trash is no more thr the clothes are ironed.... you notice but you dont appreciate because you are hurting... and who do you have to blame... yourself.... you ask but why do i do this to myself.... you get no answer..... you thank your good sense/strength at having hidden your feelings from all those who shouldnt know... and you come to a world of the anonymous and pour on.....but does it help.... no it doesn't.... does anything help??? no nothing does... would you rather give away the pain and also what caused it ... no you wouldn't.... you smile... and carry on....
dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hain
beete lamhein hamein jab bhi yaad aate hain.......
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Hmmmmm!!!! interesting......was this just a post.....or were you really sad????
In my philosophy sadness is like a boundary fence on happiness. you tend to cross the fence and it hurts and sometimes it hurts really bad. But the good thing about this fence is it is mobile......the more jovial surroundings you create the farther the fence goes. but as you said "who do you blame....blame yourself" is kind of true....
.....is it a need for attention or a need for affection that makes you give so much of power to some one .....
"what are you left with??? a hangover??? a head ache??? a few tears and the cab driver asking you the directions...." Very true... though i must add a sinking feeling in the stomach to the list .....
sad => dard ~ feelings <=> alive!
Happy being sad sometimes bole toh Happy sad not sad sad.
Kabhi happy tha,isley aaj(woh nahi hai toh) sad ;-)
"have you ever been so sad that it hurt... physically...." hmmm.. i will tell you some days back I was so sad that I felt someone is mercilessly wringing my heart as if it is a wet towel. Funny it might sound, but it ached actually like that. My heart was getting dry and chocking me...
but then mukkamal jahan... kabhi zamin to kabhi aasmaan...
Thanks a lot for your comments!
Rude_uncle... was this just a post.... depends....
as per the boundary i dont think you can separate happiness and sadness and create a boundary... they are like milk and water a homogeneous mixture and every difficult to separate from one another.... and if separated... Milk will be hard to digest and water will not give you any energy ;-)
Anonymous1... dont know what is the background/hidden processing which makes you give so much power.... but you just give... unknowingly... may be wanting sth in return... not knowing the return will be pain... because when you open your doors for love they are automatically opened for hurt too.....
Anonymous2... well i know happy sad and not sad sad... but happy sad doesnt hurt that bad....
Anonymous3... so yo uplanning to tell me who wrung your heart???
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