Back after a break...

It's been quite some time since we last talked....

hehe i dont even know who the we are... i mean one part of the "we" is me... but there has to be another part for the "we" to be really "we" and not "me".. i dont know who/what that part is... but i think that aint all that important... is it??

back to what i wanted to say... i am working in a country other than my own... i like it here its pretty comfortable.... but i came with a view of staying here for an year... give or take a few months (few <= 4 months) seems like the Gods have decided to shower their blessings on me and i will be going home (my country) within an year of being here... just 2 weeks more than an year.... I was really happy when i was told this.....

but the other day while coming back from lunch i crossed this police station again... this particular police station is the most cheerful police stations i have seen (from the outside that is) it has red/green/blue/yellow windows.... if you dont know its a police station it looks like may be a theatre (not a movie theatre a 'stage' theatre).... when i didnt know it was a police station i wanted to visit that place... a few minutes later was the 'majestic' looking building... i think it is some kind of a court.... not sure though... but i think so..... whenever i cross that building i tell myself i have to come and visit it.... needless to say i havent really done that!
and that after lunch ride i said to myself may be this is the last time i am crossing it.... i wouldnt get a chance to see it... knowing me i know i wouldnt get down to doing it... its just a court after all.... but i felt something... something strange... something like i might miss this place...
i have never felt like a part of it... i have always felt like an 'insider outsider'... as in i am a part of it but i still aint... kind of i am not detached like a tourist would be... so i am an insider....but then i wouldnt be buying beds and TV here because i know i am going back.... so i am an outsider..... although this place is quite comfortable to live in... i never realised i love it in a way....
i think when i leave (which is not for another month and a half i think) i will definitely miss it....
miss taking the over crowded bus in the evening.... miss the daily lunch of subway sandwich....
miss the 'laa' in end of every sentence.... miss the very different English and accent...
so although i am happy i am going back i will still fee sad while leaving... because without me realising; this place did grow onto me... i did become a part of it.... and it did become a part of me...
i will definitely miss being a part of the country i was never a part of!