just a haircut?

I went to this high funda high cost saloon the other day... to get a hair cut.... wait its not a saloon they are hair dressers!
I had been thr once before when i was feeling real happy and wanted to treat myself... it was a nice experience... those guys do make you feel like you are all that matters...
anyway this time i went... the receptionist recognised me... 'hello ma'am! nice to have you back!" i was impressed... obviously i didnt expect her to remember my name etc and she didnt! but i gave her my name then she asked me since i liked my last session would i like the same hair dresser this time too(she had asked me whether i was satisfied when i had left last time) ... i agreed...
now this guy comes he is all smiles... hey beautiful nice to see you again! so what have you been upto? hows life etc etc small talk....
then asks me what i want this time... relates to what i got last time (for a moment i was surprised he remembers! then i thought but of course they must have fed it in their comps!).... etc etc... and i generally have a good time... we talk about lots of irrelevant things... mainly about me.... like would i like blue hair! why and why not... how cute i am ;-) etc etc
then instead of saying we are running a promotion and we will give you a discount of xx% he says... since you are soo nice and have been so good to me i will ask the receptionist to give you a discount! and with a big you are the best smile added to it!
i knew what he was doing... just playing around with words... nonetheless i felt really good... that guy... infact everyone at that 'hair dressers' is in the vanity industry... and thats what they are playing with... vanity... making people feel good and charging a fortune for that.... but it works... because it is vanity that takes someone there and they know how to get a repeat customer! they make you feel so vain and yet make you like feeling it!!
of course i didnt take it seriously when he finished, looked at me in the mirror and said "woo!! u look like a bollywood star" the spring i had in my step after that had absolutely nothing to do with it!! ;-)

but had i been staying longer here i would definitely have continued going thr at least once a month... if for nothing else just to feel good for being alive!
Thanks :-)

what are you waiting for?

"What are you waiting for? another day another dawn? somewhere we have to find a new way to peace" - AR Rahman & Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan- Gurus of peace
the thing is finding peace isnt that simple.... its very difficult to be at peace with oneself... leave you being at peace with the world... and "world peace".... such a simple concept,... so difficult to attain!!!
this just started me thinking about reasons about why i can be restless/sad.... and then i stumbled on if someone i am in love with is sad..... then i went a step further.... someone i have a major crush on is sad.... the next thought was and he isnt sad because of me.... you dont even exist enough in his life to make him sad.... and this causes you pain.... i felt sadist even thinking about this... but somehow i felt if this was to happen to me... i might not acknowledge it but i will definitely feel it..... i felt bad thinking how low! am i the only one who thinks like this or does it happen to all of you???
am i normal or do i need to get myself enrolled in 'art of life'?

I delete

if it wasn't for the speed (and convenience) of email i would prefer snail mail to email anyday,... as in i prefer the written word to the typed word... have you ever received a letter (not an email) that letter conveys more than the words in it... if i am typing its either times new roman, comics sans, tahoma etc etc same font size mostly or a few bolds/italics... but when it is the written word it varies... if i am very excited about something my hand writing is not very neat and the alphabets are bigger.... if i am sad and not anxious the writing is very neat... if i am anxious its highly untidy and very very big... so on and so forth and sometimes in a written page i can make out my mood just by looking at the writing years afterwards.... i had come to recognize the writing of a few friends too in this way... it was closer to a face to face talk than an email....
but i preferred the written letter... so i tried making my online communication as similar to writing as i could... like while chatting i dont send a smiley unless and until i am really smiling.... i prefer not to delete stuff in an email
rather write 'went to forum sorry not forum shopper's stop" rather than delete forum and write shopper's stop....
i used to do this pretty religiously... just realised dont do it that much anymore.... but anyway....
the point is... today i deleted... deleted a blog i had written... this is a first for me.... never before have i 'destroyed' anything i have written today i did....
am feeling odd......
seems like i have changed....
dont know why i am reminded of the way jack sth says in the apartment 'and this is how it crumbles cookie wise' and i had seen that movie more than an year and a half ago... or was it in 'breakfast at tiffany's' i think apartment.... not sure...

Bells are ringing

I saw this movie yesterday 'Bells are Ringing'... its an old movie (1960 according to imdb.com) starring Judy Holliday and Dean Martin.... its a nice simple movie... a musical actually... i liked watching that movie.... a thought crossed my mind while watching it... some good movies know they are good... i dont know how to put it... they kind of know they are good... so lose their simplicity..... its like when one knows one is great they are so busy being great that they are no longer humble... not really but something like that..... but this movie, bells are ringing, does not know its great.. its simple.... and i liked the simplicity... i would suggest you watch it on a day you are stressed... may be even completely stressed... and then just lose yourself in its simplicity and happiness.... its a movie that in a scene talks about saying hello to strangers on the street.... about helping people for no reason... and this is not the theme of the movie... its a good movie....
actually i made a theory (yet another one!!) if a movie as old as this one is still in 'rent a movie' store... it definitely is a good one... otherwise it would have been off the shelves in 1970 itself!!! so do watch it....
and while you are it and listening to my reccos you might as well watch 'Singing in the rain'... another nice simple movie....