Decisions!

i dont like making decisions... not small decisions like where should i buy a pair of jeans from... but big decisions like.. may be what car should i buy (no i am not planning to buy a new car as of now :P )but thats the scale of decisions i am talking about... big decisions... a decision with heavy stakes... unlike today's IPL match... (King's XI already in semis and knight riders definitely cant be)... so there are no stakes on the match... from where i see...
if there are high stakes on any decisoin i want it to be done and over with...
actually its not making the decisions that i mind as much... i will think it over (or may be not) and make the decision... also stand by it... but what i dislike doing is waiting for the results of that decision... as in like lets say i decide to buy a santro for that car... now i just want to go and buy it ... i dont want to wait... now that i have done my part in the decision making process i want the results... like may be the waiting for the results after writing the exams... its not writing the exam that's difficult... but the waiting for the result (actually also the prep part... but that came with its own part of fun so was manageable!)... it was the waiting of the results that killed... specially waiting of the result for my psycho exam... i barely managed to pass... barely... the only course i got a D in :-) i remember going all the way to my college (a one and a half hour drive) just because sm1 said we might know the result for that particular course that day... and then i saw my answer sheet... as expected i hadnt done very well... but the prof still hadnt decided the grades... oh the wait for grades was hell.....
till today wait for the consequences of my decision (although writing that psycho exam wasnt really a decision had i had an option i would have never written the exam!) is hell.... once i make the decision i get kind of restless...
although the gut wrenching wait is also fun.... and i am sure when i look back i will say that was a fun time... but "look back" time is still far away... so for now if i had that click remote i would fast forward my life a bit...

or may be not....

AMEN!